Today

I never understood why people quit something they were passionate about till I experienced that crossroad for myself.
 
Quit photography? Or continue to pursue it?
 
I think it takes a lot of courage to go the nonconventional route, and I'm not sure I'm brave enough to continue to pursue it. However, it's an insecurity I've chosen, at least for the monent, to ignore. I think when it concerns art, or just about anything one is passionate in, it has nothing to do for a lack of love. In reality, I think it's more of the opposite. Loving something too much and suddenly feeling too inadequate. A lack of clients and jobs, supposedly superior competition, and a deep set insecurity is a pretty sure way to second guess your path of pursuing what you love (especially if you are falling short on the bills). So, what's a girl to do? 

Ignore it.
Yup. That's right. I'm telling you to ignore your insecurities. But only for a moment, and I'll tell you why.
 
When I started photography, I felt amazing, beautiful, and all powerful. I could capture beautiful memories and mementos; I could make people look and feel amazing with my work. It wasn't until I got into the business aspect of it did I lose my confidence.
I'm not saying ignoring my lack of clients is the smartest move, especially because at this moment, it's my biggest weakness. But for now, I'm allowing myself to catch my breath, and take pictures for fun. I'm learning to genuinely enjoy photography again.
 
This morning, after it snowed in Minnesota, I took a walk and shot an excessive amount of pictures. I think it's the most fun I've had with photography in months! I believe that it's important to take a step back and reevaluate your passions, especially when you're feeling insecure. So, my advice? Even if it's for a day, or a few hours, allow yourself to do what you love without any expectations. Don't think about what other people say or do, and allow yourself to ignore your insecurities. Take a moment, refresh your memory of why you enjoy what you do,  and carry on! 
 
“Life is 10 percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to it.”
 
Lou Holtz
 
-Jazz